Im trying my best to find purpose in myself and in the things i do, but theres nothing.
I believe everything is a choice; how i feel, who I love, what i do, where i go... etc.
But why do I always make such poor choices? even worse, why dont i choose to feel how i want to feel?
Innevitably, I end up feeling suck and hurt or being unhappy with myself.
It's time for a change.
This weekend was such a great oppertunity to laugh and enjoy friends, but by the end, i allowed myself to feel dis-satisfied.
I want to remember this summer as the summer I became something new.
Im tired of waiting for something to happen.


For 750$ /mo, ill be gone by the end of may!
-D