I dont know

Ive done it. Finished yet another semester if school, and with flying colors. Well, a 3.5 is flying colors to me.
Between that success and my recent birthday (50 minutes ago), i cant help but ponder on the past, and worry about the future.
God really has blessed me. Ive come so far, but at the same time I havent.
As I log onto myspace to look at my page just so i can see '21 yrs old' under my name, I start to get an unsettled feeling. The one that tells me time keeps going and you need to do something worth while before its gone.
21 years...I hope he's proud of me for them.
When i really think about it, i know he's not. But it doesent mean he stoped loving me because of it. Change needs to happen before I can call myself worthy.
As i apply for universities, im thinking the whole time. What do you want out of life?
I dont know.