DONE!

Today the albo is almost complete. I just finished singing the last tracks needed for vocals and it feels good.
The songs turned out differently than we had planned, which is both a good thing and a bad thing. I think we all need some time apart and a serious break from music. I never thought i would say that but this week/2 weeks has been seriously draining musically. I love it though. Stoked to put my name on something im proud of.

Decide, Decide
Who you are
Define, Define
Who you are

Ive got a secret, its something they cant teach
We are not alone

He died, and Survived
For you

We are not alone

Its my favorite song on the album. So simple, yet so important to me. I had to sing about you God. How could i pretend that all of this isnt for you and because of you.
I am so thankfull
-D

Keep Your Chin Up

The day is almost over and after our 7th day recording i feel drained and un-inspired. The energy we put into music should be inspiring though?
I have some down time right now, so im listening to Thrice and trying to get some words on paper, or flog I should say. Every time i listen to that band i feel soo much energy and inspiration. I just finished reading their CD booklet and it blows me away. I want to be in that place so bad it hurts. Not in a place where i can make money playing music, or in a place where i am famous, but to be in a place where I can write music I truly love, with people i love so much and with so much inspiration. It brings me to tears just thinking about.
I hope this album turns out to be something I can be proud of.
Life just makes more sence when i listen to this album.
I need to write some serious music right now. Ideas are flowing!

CHABBY

Im at good ol bones's place layin down the new record. I remember it being much more fun than this. The beginning stages are always annoying to get through (although sam loves it). Setting up the drums perfectly, sound checking everything and EQ ing all the instruments. Then finally we start recording the drums, then bass, then lead guitar and by the 6 or 7th day, we lay down rythm guitar and vocals where I finally have something to do. Till then, its 5 or 6 days of them asking my opinion on sounds and me reading GQ in the back room. YAY!
Worship was amazing this morning, i never realised how much Sarah makes everyone sound good. Her voice is the perfect mix of strength and softness. Luv it.
Dad got back today. He seems excited to ell me about the trip. Im glad it was an amazing experince for him.
In other news, i held Abby at unedited tonight and she dident cry. I couldent have been happier. CHABBY!

http://www.apple.com/trailers/paramount/charlottesweb/cw_trailer_medium.html

What they fail to mention in the trailer, is the unbarable ending. None the less, im super excited for it for some reason.

I went to see linds for a few hours in the Hospital again today. Its so hard for me to not ask questions and pick her brain. But i know she gets that enough from everyone else, and i also know im someone she can count on to listen to her talk about anything and everything without being picked apart. I love her. I dont want to loose her. But if i knew she would be happier with the freedom of dying. I would try to learn to live with it. Those words just make me want to cry all over again. Its so hard for me to see her this way. I cant get my mind around how someone can come to a point like this.
I was kicked out after visiting hours and took a stroll outside of the hospital. To my surprise, the sun was setting. The colors of pink on the horizon were enough to make me cry. I walked to the edge of the resevoir and prayed. It was an honest prayer.
I had planned to meet with Dom and sam afterwards for a cup o' tea. But instead i went home and shot some hoop's at the school. Im finding myself enjoying being alone more and more. its great, but i feel like im letting my friends down. ?
Corey was in Banff today with Amanda and chAbby. He proposed!
I was so proud of him and so happy. We talked for a bit tonight and he's so excited to move out and start his life as a husband and father. It fills me with so much joy, but i still hurt. I dont know why, but it wont go away.
I miss him so much. My little brother.
Tomorow i promised lindsay i would bring my guitar in so we could sing together.
-D
I almost forgot! Oma and I are making some serious dutch goodies tomorow. IM STOKED!

Love is breaking me down

I can have answers up to a certian point, but then I simply have to choose to believe. I mean, is'nt this true with anything. People use faith evey time they sit in a chair or step on the brakes in their car. There is no guarantee that the chair will hold the weight or that the car will stop but we sit and drive all the same. We do this because we have reasons to trust these things, even in the absence of complete knowledge. This is life. At some point i learned i will never have absolute knowledge of anything. I can know many things up to a certian point, but then i need to choose to take that last step. Faith

Best Weekend in a month

I couldent be happier about how fun this weekend has been so far. I met a really cool new friend on friday. Brianna is her name. We really hit it off. She really had a lot to say about Linds and it put me at ease.
Went to the Rhino on thursday to hear Dom's new tracks. Luv Lovin it.
Friday went to a friends wedding and then dropped almost 700 bucks on clothes and shoes. IM AN IDIOT. But a good lookin idiot no less.
Saturday went to the farmers market with oma and Mom. I loved every minuite of it. Especially the flower stand, the colors and smells are fantastic. It almost makes you smile so big it hurts. Bought a bouquet for linds. Went to see her in the Hopi. I love her so much. It hurts me to see her in thur.
Then went down the river with Mark. HAHAHAHA! SOO FUN
Now im eating din with oma and MOm about to throw an ugly sweater party at Mark's place. Time to browse through dad's ol closet.
WERD
-D

Love

Corey came into the kitchen today after work asking me what i thought of the reading he was going to recite to Amanda when he proposes. Immidiatey i thought 'dont read something, thats lame. Let it come straight from the heart'. Instead i heard him out.
He passed me the paper and i passed it back. "read it to me", i said.
"Love Is Patient, Love is kind, it does not envey, it is not easily angered it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with truth. It always protects always trusts always hopes always perserves. Love never fails".
After reading it he looked up at me and i looked away pretending to make a sandwich or something, when in fact i was only trying to hide my tears. I told him it was the best proposal i could ever imagine for him and Amanda.
What an amazing verse. What an amazing brother.